A Big Decision.

I asked Alberto a few days after we were married if we were going to try for a baby. It's something we have talked about before but not really seriously or in depth. I was happy to find out that all the reasons I was apprehensive about having a baby were his also. Gabriel will be 10 in a few days. He is at the age where we can take him anywhere with us and not have to worry about things you do with a baby. Also, we didn't want him to end up taking care of the baby instead of being a kid and enjoying being a big brother. Having a baby would mean we would have to start all over. We love our freedom and the fact that in a second we can jump up and go. Another serious consideration is my health. Having MS is no joke. They say you feel better than you ever have being pregnant but the chances of having a large relapse shortly after birth is about 50% certain. And because no one knows the real cause of MS and if it's hereditary it's a hard decision.

So, with all this said and most of our decisions being based on selfishness we have decided to see what happens. I will be making an appointment soon to talk to my neuro. If everything is in the clear we hopefully will be adding a little addition to our family. Of course, we will talk to Gabriel also and make him a big part of this. He is, after all, just as big a part of this decision as we are. I know Alberto will be the most loving, hands on daddy. He has been that way with Gabriel since day one. Although he considers Gabriel his own, he really deserves to have a child from his own blood. I am excited to be moving on to another adventure in our lives and hopefully be welcoming a beautiful little baby to our family soon. This is such a huge moment for us and we couldn't be happier. Pinch me, because I feel like I'm dreaming.