Sex And The City.

I finally saw Sex and the City today! No surprise here, but I absolutely loved it. I was reading some reviews where people said it had no story line. Blah, blah, blah. Not sure what movie they were watching but it totally had a story line. And, it lived true to the series. Needless to say I was not disappointed.
*Big wanting to take 2 days a week apart to do his thing and Carrie do her thing - I actually like the idea and the meaning behind it. But, 2 days a week is too much. Maybe 2 days a month or maybe even 2 days every other week. Not that I want to be away from my husband, but I see where this can be a good thing. It can help from things getting monotonous. And, I'm big on each person having their own freedom and not so dependent on the other. As I write this I am in the bedroom watching The Bachelorette while Alberto is playing Xbox in the living room. Same difference.
*Charlotte having a hard time admitting she is stressed from her kids - Another reason I love Miranda so much. She got Charlotte to open up, even if it took her getting a little tipsy. It's okay to want to lock yourself in a room and let your kid cry. It's okay to feel like you are going crazy sometimes. Us moms wouldn't be human if we didn't want to pull our hair out, scream, cry, or just need to get away. Poor Charlotte just tries too hard to be perfect.
*Samantha getting arrested for being too risque in Abu Dhabi - PRICELESS! Typical Samantha. I love how she stands true to who she is no matter what.
*The women of Abu Dhabi with the trendy clothes under their Abayas - I wonder what the percentage of women there actually do that? I definitely would.
*Big forgiving Carrie for kissing Aidan and taking the high road - After all, Carrie did let him know immediately and felt genuinely bad for doing it. She did make the mistake by "playing with fire" but she learned her lesson and did the right thing.
*Miranda - Loved seeing Miranda quit her job, see her son win the Science Fair, loosen up in Abu Dhabi, and then find an even better job where she is more appreciated. I am most like her character :)
*Favorite part of movie - Seeing Charlotte in Carrie's old apartment taking time for herself. Ironic how she thought Carrie was crazy for mentioning the 2 day thing, but she ended up doing it herself. Good for her!!
These were just highlights I wanted to remember. I love how I can and I'm sure lots of other women can relate to these characters. Big applause to the writers and actors!

Scarborough Faire.

Every year we go to Scarborough Faire in Waxahachie. This year added a new element of fun to our yearly excursion because we had Ken, Joellen, Celeste, Brianna, and Cole join us. You can't go wrong with great entertainment, great food, and great company. We've been taking Gabriel since he was just about 5 years old. Its become a family tradition of sorts. As a kid there wasn't anything I did like this, so hopefully it's something that will continue and he can enjoy with his children one day. We take a picture every year of him in front of this one sign. Instead of marking a line on a wall in the house, we use this sign to gage how much he has grown each year. We are missing 2007. Not sure if maybe we didn't go that year. And 2008 is missing because we lost the camera that year :(

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In A Funk.

Don't know what it is, but I'm in a funk. I hate when I get like this. I have this overwhelming need for something new to happen. It seems the older I get the more I get in these moods. It's not that I'm unsatisfied with anything, it's just I need something to constantly challenge me or something to put all my attention on. For 9 months all my thoughts were focused on the wedding. That was fun because it entailed all sorts of things. I have a tendency to get bored with repetitiveness. Hobbies are good, but they all get old at some point. Guess I need to do a little here and a little there to keep it interesting. I definitely need to find a way to get over these humps. Today I wanted a new puppy then I wanted an Iphone. It went back and forth between those things all day. Alberto has to think I'm nuts. I sometimes have all these ideas in my head that I overwhelm myself and literally feel worn out. Then I get upset at myself for trying to take on too much. It's like a constant struggle. I need to find that right amount of balance. Hopefully I'll find it before I drive myself insane.

Update.

Alberto bought me my "Gotta Have It" watch in my post below. I am SUPER excited! I have the sweetest hubby. Here's to my new watch addiction. Coming soon will be one with the pink band. There are so many cute ones it is so hard not to want them all.

Gotta Have It.

Daydreaming.

Today I had to make a long drive to Ardmore and back to pick up some product for work today. Here are just a few things that crossed my mind.

Trip to Las Vegas. Alberto had a grand idea for us book a Vegas vacation for my belated birthday present. I have always wanted to go and what better occasion to book it? In a weird way I was looking forward to turning 30 and was hoping to have a pretty cool celebration. Unfortunately Alberto's surgery came to be and instead of partying it up we were setting in the doctor's office for my birthday. Big sigh. So, all these thoughts about where to stay, what to do, what shows to see, do it over a long weekend or during the week, how much time do we have to take off work, and on and on and on.

Rihanna. I was totally jamming out to my Rihanna CD. Totally fabulous CD by the way. I was singing along picturing myself on stage entertaining the crowd and how I could absolutely do that for a living... if only I could sing. Just missing one crucial piece of the puzzle. Big sigh #2.

Little bug on my windshield. Why do the smallest creatures decide to land on your windshield when you are going 80mph? Poor little thing was holding on for dear life. They must have suction cups for feet or something. I was trying hard not to look at it because it breaks my heart when they get blown away. One of two things happen at that point. Either they die or they attach themselves to another window and continue to be completely freaked out all their life. I am so glad I'm not a bug.

Summer. School is out Tuesday. My baby is officially going to be a 5th grader. 5th grade was my favorite year of school. That is counting elementary, middle, and high school. I had great teachers, great friends, and my first real boyfriend. I think I remember more from 5th grade than any other year. I just hope Gabriel's is just as fun.

Alberto finally being all healed up.
Moving back to TX.
Getting my butt back in the gym.
Visiting Yancy in Colorado.
Visiting Charlotte and Jay in North Carolina.

Sounds like I may have a new bucket list in the making...

Oh Oklahoma.

Oh Oklahoma how I loathe thee. This tornado season thing is really stressing me out. I had no idea you had this sort of craziness when I decided to move here. Yes, my job is great and I really enjoy what I do (not mention I'm fantastic at it), but come on with this weather. Worrying all day about something out of my control really puts a toll on my whole being. I hurried to pick Gabriel up from school, practically ran through Wal Mart to get batteries, more flashlights, bottled water, and snacks to stock up the safe room "closet". I sat on the couch for 5 hours watching the news only to see the tornadoes pass right by us. Poor Gabriel sat with his helmet and shoes on the whole time. All the while saying how he kept hearing you need to have on a helmet and shoes. He even went as far as to cover his body in pillows. I should have gotten a picture. My boy sure is a rule follower. Not that I am complaining a tornado didn't hit my area. My mind is just so tired. And they say it will be like this the next two days. I just know the minute I relax and underestimate the storm is when it will hit. Insert big sigh. Guess I will just continue on with my overprotective, overreacting self until the season is over. I can hear Texas calling my name right now.

Things That Make You Go Hmmmm.

Just a little something to bring a smile to your face...

1. I think part of a best friend's job is to immediately clear your computer history if you die.
I sure hope my BF reads this.

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you are wrong.
I have no idea what this is like, because I'm always right ;)

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap as a child.
Because Lord knows I can sleep it up now.

4. There is a great need for a sarcasm font.
If there was one I would get in trouble for using all the time at work :)

5. How the heck are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?
I just roll them up!

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?
I think not!

7. Map Quest really needs to start its directions on #5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.
That is unless I tell Joellen to take 35 South to Oklahoma!

8. Bad decisions make good stories.
And I have truly learned that lesson!

9. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.
If you say this doesn't happen to you, you are a liar!

10. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of WORD and it asks me if I want to save any pages to my paper that I swear I didn't make any changes to.
Does anyone know why it always does that?

11. I hate leaving my house feeling confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.
And the one day you throw on sweats, pull up your hair, and don't put a bit of makeup on you see everyone you know!

12. I keep some people's phone #'s in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.
There's always at least one in every bunch.

13. Sometimes I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.

14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.
Luckily when Gabriel is around I have him make the extra trip :)

15. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

16. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

17. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

18. I wish it were appropriate to say to a complete stranger "Excuse me, would you like for me to show you how to discipline your child?"
Sometimes I want to write a book on this :)

19. My GPS says "Estimated Arrival Time". I see "Time to Beat."
And I usually beat it!

20. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

Happy 10th Birthday Gabriel.

Saturday was my baby's 10th birthday. I say it every year, but I really can't believe he is 10. Double digits is a BIG deal. I wanted to do something extra special and memorable so I rented a limo to surprise him and his friends. The party started at the house at 3. We had cupcakes, played Name That Song, and had a Guitar Hero challenge. At 4 the limo was waiting outside the house. I handed out the VIP passes and lined up the kids at the door. They still had no idea what the surprise was. It was so fun to hear them all guessing and asking for clues. I had them close their eyes and walk out to the front yard. I had the camera ready on Gabriel's face to get his reaction when he saw the limo. It was PRICELESS! Him and his friends were saying how awesome and cool it was. The limo company even put a happy birthday banner and balloon in the car for Gabriel. That was a nice touch. Our first stop was Braums for ice cream. The reaction from some of the customers was just what I was hoping for. The boys loved it. They looked like they could have been a new boy band in the making. If I would have thought about that we could have said that's what they were. After ice cream we drove around downtown OKC, stopped and took some pictures, and let the kids run around a bit. We had the limo for 2 hours which was perfect. When we got home he opened his presents and the party was over. The day couldn't have been any more fantastic! I don't think Gabriel will ever forget it.

So Freakin' Cute.

Look what my bestest friend and her family got me for my birthday!! Cookies by Design! It was such a sweet surprise to come home to these. It brought a huge smile to my face and I couldn't stop looking at them. The colors are so vibrant and fun. What a fantastic gift idea. Joellen, Ken, Celeste, Brianna, & Cole: You guys are the best!

They also sent Alberto and Gabriel one. They were just as excited about theirs as I was mine.

The Big 3-0.

Today is my birthday! My 30th birthday to be exact. I feel good about it so far. I just wish we were all healthy enough to go out and celebrate. We will definitely be partying it up as soon as we can. I see a trip to TX in our very near future. So Joellen, Ken, Steph, Gregg, Joe, Tracy, get ready!

Maybe It's A Curse.

So, guess where I ended up today? At the doctor's office for a bladder infection. Last week I felt the symptoms coming on and drank cranberry juice like it was nobody's business. I started feeling much better and went on my way. This morning I woke up with some pain and again started downing cranberry juice and water. Around 12:30 I felt like I was in labor. It came on so sudden. I was in the bedroom floor doubled over in pain crying like a baby and saying some not choice words. Alberto was sleeping on the couch (his pills knock him out). Not that he could have done anything since he is still having some trouble getting around. I tried calling my doctor's office, but they were all at lunch. They really should stagger their lunches so someone is always around. I wasn't sure what to do, but knew I needed help so I called Robin. Robin is my one and only true Oklahoma friend. Thank God for Robin. I don't know what I would do without her, especially this last week. I called her crying asking if she could come and get me. I knew there was no way at that point I could drive. She told me about the Minute Clinic at CVS and said she would come get me. After a little while longer of gulping down water and one good long pee, I felt a little better. I hopped in the car and headed to CVS. It's just right down the road. Of course, when I got their they were gone to lunch too. I wanted to scream!! Luckily the nurse came back early and was very apologetic. She had me in and out of there in 20 minutes. Less time than it would take to go to the actual doctor. She said I have an extremely bad bladder infection, one of the worst she's ever seen. I had blood in my urine, super high levels of infection, and I was dehydrated. I wonder where all that water and cranberry juice has been going? Funny to me that I would be dehydrated. Anyway, I got two prescriptions and am now feeling a bit better. I kept waiting to push out a baby the pain and cramps were so bad. Now Alberto and I can both be gimps together tonight. Never really thought much about believing in curses, but I'm beginning to think someone put one on us.

Surgeries & Tornadoes Galore.

The past few days have been interesting to say the least. Sunday night around 10:30 Alberto jumps out of bed and yells from the bathroom that I need to take him to the ER. For a second I thought it was a joke until I saw the seriousness in his face. One of his previous injuries from the Army flared up and caused some internal bleeding. It all happened so fast, no warning at all. Monday afternoon he had surgery. He had a bit of a complication last night and is doing as well as could be expected. While he was in recovery some pretty serious weather started happening. Luckily we were in the room that had the only TV so I was able to know what was happening. 39 tornadoes hit Oklahoma and two came way too close for comfort to where we were. Gabriel was at a friends house and was in an underground shelter thank goodness. And the recovery area at the hospital is pretty much underground too, so it was nice to know we were all as safe as we could be. When we got home the only damage to our house were the backyard fences. They are completely torn down. In my friends neighborhood they had hail the size of grapefruits if not bigger and got some holes in their roof. See picture below. It is INSANE!!! Oh, the joys of living in Oklahoma.

Also, today one of our great friends and one of the best guys I know had a very big deal surgery. We just got off the phone with him and everything went well. He sounds good and seems to be in good spirits. We love him very much and hopefully soon we will be able to take a trip up to see him.

Dear Gabriel,

Today is Mother's Day, but to me it is our day. You are the reason I get to celebrate this day and to me it is just as much yours as it is mine.

Because of you I have learned what unconditional love truly means. Being your mommy is the most wonderful, fulfilling, amazing job and without you I wouldn't have the pleasure of experiencing it. From the first time I held you in my arms I vowed to never let you down and to be there for you no matter what. I promised to always put you first, love you whole heartedly, and fill your life with joy and happiness just like I knew you would mine. No matter what, being your mommy is my first priority. Your big hugs, sweet kisses, and your little voice telling me you love me and I'm the "best mommy in the whole world" is the best gift I could ever receive. You have given me so much joy, strength, patience, and a heart overfilling with love and I will be forever blessed because I am your mommy.

My Love Always,
Mommy

Taking It Back Old School.

It's really strange that one of my favorite past times as a child is now one of my son's favorite things to do... hanging out at the skating rink on Friday/Saturday nights. I vividly remember the many many hours spent at the Cleburne skating rink. No worries, no parents, only my friends and the music. Joellen (my most amazing bestest friend in the whole wide world) and I both have so many memories and I am so lucky to have them to share with her. It was so much fun skating around flirting with the boys, buying No Doz from the snack bar, and mixing "suicides" at the drink bar. Not to mention the many lock ins there and getting my first hickey from a boy during one of the movies played on the huge projector screen on the rink floor. Not proud of this but kids will be kids. Crazy times!

Now, my sweet, innocent, lovable little man is hanging out there with his friends. It is a lot different these days though. Fortunately there are no longer lock ins, the crowd is a lot younger, and there are lots of adult employees and parents hanging around. Not to mention, the owner is very aware of what goes on. He pays close attention to who comes and goes and what kids belong to what parents. The front door is always locked and cannot be opened without him doing it. I am all for kids having their freedom and being "kids" but I am thankful that there are safer precautions these days. Of course there are still the girls there asking the boys to couple skate, wanting to be girlfriend/boyfriend, lots of talk of who is cute and who isn't, but it's all very light and fun and innocent.

I was standing there last night looking for my son and his friends to round them up to head home and I couldn't help but laugh out loud when I saw two cute girls skate by. One was a tall blonde and the other a shorter brunette. They say history repeats itself and those two girls were definitely Joellen and I reincarnated. Thinking about it again brings a tear to my eye. Good times!

A Big Decision.

I asked Alberto a few days after we were married if we were going to try for a baby. It's something we have talked about before but not really seriously or in depth. I was happy to find out that all the reasons I was apprehensive about having a baby were his also. Gabriel will be 10 in a few days. He is at the age where we can take him anywhere with us and not have to worry about things you do with a baby. Also, we didn't want him to end up taking care of the baby instead of being a kid and enjoying being a big brother. Having a baby would mean we would have to start all over. We love our freedom and the fact that in a second we can jump up and go. Another serious consideration is my health. Having MS is no joke. They say you feel better than you ever have being pregnant but the chances of having a large relapse shortly after birth is about 50% certain. And because no one knows the real cause of MS and if it's hereditary it's a hard decision.

So, with all this said and most of our decisions being based on selfishness we have decided to see what happens. I will be making an appointment soon to talk to my neuro. If everything is in the clear we hopefully will be adding a little addition to our family. Of course, we will talk to Gabriel also and make him a big part of this. He is, after all, just as big a part of this decision as we are. I know Alberto will be the most loving, hands on daddy. He has been that way with Gabriel since day one. Although he considers Gabriel his own, he really deserves to have a child from his own blood. I am excited to be moving on to another adventure in our lives and hopefully be welcoming a beautiful little baby to our family soon. This is such a huge moment for us and we couldn't be happier. Pinch me, because I feel like I'm dreaming.

Things Do Change.

Before Alberto and I got married we talked about things changing. We both agreed that chances were nothing would change since we had been together going on 6 years. Well, guess what? Things definitely do change. Not only do I feel closer to Alberto, but somehow I feel I love him more.

*I feel this sense of peace and overwhelming love.*

It's nothing I have ever experienced before. I had a wall up protecting myself from pain and my heart from loving fully. All that is gone and it feels so freeing. Here's to being completely and wholeheartedly in love and to Alberto for being the most amazing man I have ever known and to the next chapter in our lives!

The best thing to hold onto in life is each other!